It’s okay to ask for help. Personally, I don’t ask for help very often. I’m not sure if it’s being too prideful or too embarrassed. Either way, it’s pretty silly not to ask.

When I think of asking for help, speaking directly to someone jumps to mind. However, lately with so much content online, simply signing up for a course or joining an online community are also great options. Being online and anonymous also steps over whether you’re too prideful or too embarrassed.

When stuck in a loop, everything seems overwhelming. So even searching for a course can seem challenging. There are so many options, and it can all sound like noise. The best thing to do, is to choose one and commit.

I recently started a 28 day challenge from a company called Hack Self Growth. I was shown their ad on Instagram at just the right time that lead me to sign up for their 28 day course for less than $20 USD. It’s an email everyday for 28 days. I wasn’t sure what to expect because there wasn’t too much information about it online. Their website is bare and I honestly thought it was a scam, but for $20, I thought it would be worth a shot.

I’m on Day 2 and will write a review about this after I complete the course.

I kept telling myself that I didn’t need to sign up for any of these types of courses because I could just do it myself. But I never got started. Even after signing up for the challenge, it took me a week to start Day 1.

Part of me thinks I don’t need help, but that’s a lie. Even if we don’t need the help, it’s just better to get help. If someone’s already gone through similar struggles, why not take the advantage and use their knowledge? Learn from their mistakes and get to where you want to be.

So don’t be too afraid, prideful, embarrassed or any other excuse to ask for help! As Barack Obama put it:

“Don’t be afraid to ask questions. Don’t be afraid to ask for help when you need it. I do that every day. Asking for help isn’t a sign of weakness, it’s a sign of strength. It shows you have the courage to admit when you don’t know something, and to learn something new.”

I want to write just one more thing about this.

I’ve been chasing happiness for so long, that whenever something made me unhappy, I just stopped doing it. Now, I think if something makes you unhappy, you should stop. Who the hell wants to keep doing things that bring you misery? Like if you don’t like swimming, stop going in the water.

What I want to get at here, is the difference between something that brings you misery vs. something that is difficult. Personally, I think I’ve combined the two feelings. Because something is difficult, it doesn’t bring me immediate joy, and therefore I should stop doing it because it’s making me unhappy.

I’m going to work on decoupling those two things. Something that is difficult or annoying to do, doesn’t necessarily make me unhappy. It’s just difficult and that’s it. I’m going to push forward into these difficult things and see what happens when I get passed the initial “ugh, i’m annoyed, fuck this” moment. I don’t have a specific example in mind, but I’ll write about it when I come across one.

Most of today was just packing and trying to sell shit on the internet. I’m moving out of my apartment at the end of this month and I have no idea where I’ll be going next. I don’t want to be carrying several bags with me, so planning to pack as if I’ll be traveling on the road again. It’s a bit trickier this time around because I’ll be in cities with multiple climates. And I plan on trying to keep up my contracting type work. Which by the way, I am loving.

I think the next few weeks will teach me a lot about what I need vs. want when it comes to material items.

On the run, but gotta put this in! I’m headed back to Los Angeles today. Had a great time catching up with my friend in Seattle last night. Had wonderful conversations that dove between light and dark and heavy and light. It’s really something to know someone you can not see for years and catch up on such a personal level. Today, I am grateful for that continuous friendship.

I seemingly had an amazing breakthrough yesterday. Only to have it all tumbling down in an instant in an evening.

Isn’t it interesting how up and down emotions can be? I know I complain whenever my emotions are down, but you can’t really always be on the up and up, right? Up can’t exist without a down. Same with opposite emotions. When I’m in a bad place, I’ve been trying to remember that “this too, shall pass”. Life goes on, you just gotta power through it.

Where’s “this too shall pass” from anyways? I thought I remember Gandalf saying it in Lord of the Rings, but I cannot confirm that. This is going to bother me now…

Sigh. I missed out on today again. I’m taking Meditations with me to Seattle tomorrow so let’s see what happens.

This is just an excuse, but I need to wake up at 4am tomorrow. So I’m going to pass on today’s Meditation quote. Also…. I didn’t read one today. Ugh. It’s okay. At least I am admitting this and trying to better myself.