I want to write just one more thing about this.

I’ve been chasing happiness for so long, that whenever something made me unhappy, I just stopped doing it. Now, I think if something makes you unhappy, you should stop. Who the hell wants to keep doing things that bring you misery? Like if you don’t like swimming, stop going in the water.

What I want to get at here, is the difference between something that brings you misery vs. something that is difficult. Personally, I think I’ve combined the two feelings. Because something is difficult, it doesn’t bring me immediate joy, and therefore I should stop doing it because it’s making me unhappy.

I’m going to work on decoupling those two things. Something that is difficult or annoying to do, doesn’t necessarily make me unhappy. It’s just difficult and that’s it. I’m going to push forward into these difficult things and see what happens when I get passed the initial “ugh, i’m annoyed, fuck this” moment. I don’t have a specific example in mind, but I’ll write about it when I come across one.